14/9/11

exam will be finished after tomorrow...
not satisfy with this time's performance...
have done so many unforgivable mistakes...
and also wasted many times on watching drama...
haiz....
what to do?
everything is passed already...
i always like that...regret after the things have happened...
difficult to change this altitude...
i know...how many effort we put in is proportional to how much we gain...
so i just can blame myself for not working harder enough...

there is some problem between him and i...
i found that i have lost the feeling on him...
i plan to break with him...
but...so many things need to be considered...
i worry that this matter may influence his study...
i am not willing to see such things happen...
what can i do?
i am so suffering...
i should feel happy after exam...but i am not...
i don't know how to face him...
i sure that i can't be with him anymore...
who can help me?......

3/8/11

i so pity the teachers every morning...
the seri keledang 's students seem like very like to talk...
no matter how the teachers ask them to keep quiet,they still keep on talking and talking...
is there any problem with their ears or mouth?
we all are human...
we should able to listen to the others' command...
they have many chances to talk at other time...
y they so rebellious and reject to listen what the teachers talk?
definitely cant understand what are they thinking of...
the teachers really very pity...need to shout on the students like selling vegetables in market...
even many of my friends also like that...so helpless to the teachers...
if we are mature enough,we should able to think from the others' perspective and should do the right thing in the right time... am i right?

3/8/11

today Mr Chew gave us some question papers to do...that is the trial exam paper of 2009....
i found that i cant answer many questions well...
this means that my effort is still not enough...
so depressed when i do not know how to answer the simple questions...
anyway...there is still have some time...
hope i can master all the syllabus after this one month 's effort!

27/7/11

today learned a new word 'procrastination' from the comprehension paper given by Pn.Teoh in school...
found that this word truly can describe my before condition...
ya...i always procrastinate even though i know i shouldn't be like that...
i am a form six student...no more time for me to waste...
i should arrange my time well...
shouldn't always wait for the right mood to do something...
shouldn't delay the important task with any excuse...
so...from now...no more procrastination...i promise!

21/7/11

a happy day also...
today is kit yeng 's birthday...
we went cooking in her house for celebration...
a special way for celebration izit?hahaha...
got spagetti,mushroom soup,frenchfried,hotdog,so on...
the taste not bad...
can be considered as a very good performance since we are not expert in cooking...
this is my second time to cook together with friends...unforgetful experience...
always enjoy and appreciate the times together with friends...

my confidence has increased a bit after knowing that the last year 4 flat student able to get the offer from NUS for further study...
this is because i know that he is not so active in koko and thought that he will not get the oversea's offer for his poor performance in koko...
now he is able to make it...means that koko is not an important key for applying to go further study in oversea...
this is the thing always make me worrying...i worry my future may be influenced by the poor performance in koko...
feel a bit relief after getting the news...
so what i need to do is put all my concentration on academic for my 4 flat goal without any worry!
i know my dream may come true if i able to get 4 flat!

lastly...feel a bit sad because i need to go to school tomorrow since most of my friends no need to go....sad...

18/7/11

today have performed a drama with my whole classmates....
really enjoy to perform in front of people...
quite satisfy with our performance...
and feel happy to see other people enjoy our show too...
a chinese phase can best describe today's feeling---台上三分钟，台下十年功~
this is an unforgetable experience and memory for me...
i think i would not forget it until the end of the life...

well...finally this drama is finished already...
now is the time to concentrate completely on my study...
no more excuse...
actually feel so envy to my friends able to get a good course and university...
i also wish myself can be like that...
so...i must work hard now...

13/7/11

today's morning really very bad...just because of the shit hem!
this morning...wake up late a bit...if i know something will happen later,i will not go to school...
wear t-shirt to school because of the koko day...and the bottom one i wear the long pants which i do not know it is not allowed in that school...because i have saw my friends wear such pants many times already and there is nothing happen to them...and...i want to mention that this is my first time to wear such pants...
really unfortunated...finally another five classmates and i get caught by the shit hem because we wear the pants which are considered not suitable...
i thought this is a small case only...
but...the shit hem is very angry until he want us to call our parents to bring another suitable pants for us to change!
what?call our parents?why we need to disturb our parents just because of this tiny negligible case?do our parents very free like him?
and look at shit hem and see how he treat us...
he treat us like we are prisoner!
have we done some serious crimes like taking drug or killing somebody?
no!we just wear a not suitable pants only!
we are not go to school by naked...we are not wearing a short hot pants...we are not wearing jeans...
what we wear are just simple long pants only!
but from his respond toward this problem and the tone he talk to us,seems like we have done something cannot be accepted and forgave...
he even want us to see principle...but other teachers and the principle also look like do not think this is the serious problem...only he himself looked so irritated...
maybe he is irritated by what siu yeng said to him...maybe he cannot accept others fight him back...but i really respect to siu yeng for her courage...or maybe his nervous system something wrong already...
really cant withstand with such shit man!
luckily i am not facing this problem alone...
but really not worth for tearing because of this matter...
anyway...just take this as a lesson...maybe i will face something even worse than this in future...
life is still long...hopefully next time i can manage it with more courage and wisdom...but more hope that i would not face such matter anymore...

10/7/11

one month plus passed already...but this is the fifth post only...==sweat...
actually i dun really like writing...
if i have something in my heart...i more prefer to talk to somebody or just hide it in my heart...it's difficult for me to express it in word...that's why i am not a good writer...

about 4 months more to STPM test...
pui yee...work hard please...
i do not know how to force myself to study...the date is getting nearer and nearer...and i also getting more and more stress...but just feel stress and nervous is not enough...i must have some real action for this most important exam...but...how?
i always feel that what i do now is not enough...for pass is ok...but really not enough to hit my 4 flat target...
4 months only...i just need to suffer 4 months...
after that i can do whatever i like...
so...please...work hard a bit...i promise myself here that i must able to do it instead of just talk talk or write write only!

I WANT TO GET 4 FLAT!!!!

Happy Birthday^^

27th of june...one of the special day which i love the most^^
just feel my birthday seems like a special ceremony this year...
because i have started to celebrate my birthday with different people two day before...
hahaha~
really feel happy to spend this special day with all of them...
especially my dear...i know he always try to give me surprise...i really can feel his kindness...thanks dear...
feel lucky to have such guy as my partner who always love me,protect me and give me a lot of happiness...
i always make a promise in my heart that i must treat this guy well and should never hurt him...
but...i know i always fail to make it...haiz...

this few day really memorable and happy...
lastly,hope all my birthday wishes can come true^^

Holiday end

Holiday is going to end after today...
feel a bit sad...because i was just doing nonsense in this holiday...have wasted a lot of times...haiz...
anyway...this holiday maybe is my last holiday before the STPM exam...i mean a holiday which allow me to rest,play and do whatever other than studying...
i should not do any nonsense thing in every moment after today...
i need to buy every second and minute and spend it without any wastage on my academic...i have no more choice...i need to put all my effort on it to realize my dream and for my future as well...
i know i will regret if i m fail just because i never put the enough effort...
i should always remember my target...that is i want to get 4 flat!!!
there is nothing impossible...if we really put our effort on it, any impossible will become possible...i believe this theory...just like when i first saw the MJ's mv to learn the 'thriller' 's dance steps,i immediately think that is impossible for me to learn such dance...but...finally,all of us can make it!
this is real example to prove this theory...
we should never give up until the last minute!

tomorrow the muet result come out...
hopefully i can get what i want...god bless me...

Singapore Edu Tour(30/5/11-1/6/11)

3 days 2 nights trip...so tired but worthwhile...
the main purpose to take part in this trip is to expose myself to the singapore's education system and the study environment...
i really fall in love in NTU when i first saw the huge building,the greenish environment and the comfortable condition of hostel there!
the first thinking appear in my mind was "i will not have any regret in my life if i have the chance to study there!"...
i ever wish to study there long time ago...but i gave up this wish later since i found that i am not willing to live in a life fulled with pressure in singapore...
but now the thought to study there appear in my mind again...
i wish to get the chance to study there even though this is a difficult job for me...i need to put more triple efford than before if i want to realise this dream!
can i make it?
anyway,this has become a pushing effort for me to study hard...
i want to get a good result for having the higher chances to realise it...
maybe i still cant enter singapore's universities at last...but i will have more choices than others to further my studies if i able to get a good result...
but still had some dissatisfactory in this tour...
that is we waste a lot of times spending in the bus...
and we cant visit NUS since we are shortage of time...really disappointed...
anyway...i still enjoy this meaningful trip...

The Journey Of My Life

Decided to create a new blog even thought i have the old one already...
dun noe why...sometimes i cant write or express my real feeling or what i am thinking in that blog...
maybe i am not willing to let other people to know and share that...
that why i make the decision to create a new one...
entitled this as "my life journey" is because i hope that i can express my real feeling and record every important part of my life as well in this blog...
i always think that our life is a long journey...
how our life looks like always depends on our choices and mindset...
happy or sad,ordinary or special are all depend on how we conduct it...
besides...i decided to use english in this blog as one strategy on improving my english...
english really very important in our life...especially in the future...
i will be left behind if i still cant master english well after this year...
so i must put my efford on it and must make it as i have no choice if i wish to success in future...